I am still on the fence about moving, though the fence is sagging and leaning toward the moving side a little heavier every morning, when I watch the morning news with the Crime Story du Jour. Orlando is now Miami - you get the overnight body count with your morning coffee.
Next month we have a homeowners' association garage sale. Normally this is grounds to get the hell outta Dodge for the day, because I hate garage sales. I really do. I've had a couple in my life, and it was a surreal experience to put my worldly goods on the driveway to be picked over by strangers, but this year I am going to squelch my natural revulsion and participate. Yes, I am. Because right now I am looking around my house with a jaundiced eye, and asking my Self the tough question: Do I want to move this?
And for 75% of the contents of the house, the answer is, "Are you effing kidding, Self? You don't use it. You just pay a big fat mortgage to store it." And a lot of IT is stuff charities won't take. I know, I've tried. The ones that provide furniture for families don't have a burning desire for multiple bookcases, an old exercise bike and an unused espresso machine.
So I am going to spend a chunk of the next two weeks tagging many garage sale items, and then I'm going to Asheville, and then the weekend after I come back I will suck it up and be a big girl and put on sunscreen and pour a giant thermal cup of iced tea and sit on the driveway with the crap I can't even get charity to take. And if it doesn't sell, that's it, Monday is garbage day. It goes. And I will continue to identify and give away things I can give away, and donate things that can be donated, and then screw it, trash the rest. I tried to move it on, but the universe didn't want it.
I may move. I may stay. But either way, I will empty this house of a decade of this and that, odds and ends, clutter and crap, and that in itself will change the energy here. If I move, and I probably will, I will move only the things I truly love and care about. If I don't move, and I may not, I will live with only the things I truly love and care about. I don't see a downside to this.