It's time you were ruthlessly true to yourself and your real desires. Stop making compromises when it comes to complex work or relationship matters! Some problem seems terribly complex, but it's actually pretty simple. It may not have an easy solution, but if you take the hard path, you should feel a lot better very quickly. Resolve to just hang in there.
The path is hard, and I'm making progress, and hanging in there, but it's scary. Today I do my wildlife rescue volunteer shift, and I need to track down the painters who did the exterior work on my house a few years ago (I hope they are still in business) and get started on the living room work, and work on getting the pond removed, and continue cleaning out the garage, and also call the vet. Smooch needs a check-up and heartworm and flea meds, and Boris, oh, poor Boris. He's hanging in, but not doing very well.
Hanging in there. We is doin it.